Facebook's "On This Day" can be a blessing and a curse. Some days I can't stand to look back on the memories because they hurt so much. Other days, they show me exactly what I need. Like a smiling picture of Liam or a video of him singing. Today was a mixture of both.
In 2016 I posted pictures of playdough creations Liam's preschool friends made me. I wrote the following:
On April 28th I started volunteering back I'm Liam's preschool class. I thought it was going to be very difficult, that maybe I'd even have to walk out because I'd start crying. And like I also expected, they asked about Liam. And they like I didn't expect, they would randomly walk up and hug me or just hold my hand. During center, I worked at the playdough table where we had to make bugs. After the kids were able to create anything. I randomly took the pipe cleaners and made hearts. The kids thought it was awesome and continued to ask me to make more for their creations. When they were done they presented each one to be saying they made them for Liam. Some were for me. I almost started crying right then and there. How special are these children whose hearts are huge and willing to love unconditionally and grieve with a smile on their face? They tell me they miss him and that he's their friend. "Of course he's your friend. He will always be your friend" I tell them. They smile huge back at me. Kids deal with things differently. Sometimes I wish I was more like them. Believing without seeing. Always having faith in everything and everyone. I carrying with me forever in my heart these memories and they help me more than these kids will ever know.
As hard as it was to go back to volunteer in his class, it was also a blessing. I needed to be there with those amazing kids, Liam's friends, to be reminded that there was still so much love and innocence in this world. Being there with them twice a week got me through some really tough times. I work at their school and have been able to watch these kids grow. They're in 1st grade now and have gotten so tall. Every day they come through the lunch line and they smile at me, tell me "Hi Ms Aubin" or give me that shy silly smile that always makes me laugh.
Then there was the day we got a glow in the dark surprise. In 2015 I wrote:
We got a surprise! So today I got a call from hubby saying to get home because the dog ate Liam's gtube button. Yes folks you read that right. The dog...ate...Liam's gtube. He just decided it was a toy and pulled it out and ended up eating it. Justin said he heard Liam yelling at the dog "no dog no! Bad dog!" So he turned around and saw what happened. Liam didn't cry, he just scolded the dogs. That's a new one for us and now we know that Liam isn't allowed outside with them unless he has on clothes. Apparently the dog really like the smell and taste of the stomach leaking. Smh. Anyway. I came home and cleaned him up and put in a new button. I got to looking at it and that's when I realized it was a glow in the dark button!! We've had a blast with this tonight. We called him a ghost, ET and taught him to say "et phone home" then called him a glow worm. Liam thought it was the coolest thing ever to have his gtube glow.
I had been getting him ready for bed when we noticed it glowing. Talk about an exciting event. We thought it was just so awesome. It's the little things that made life easier.
In 2016 I posted pictures of playdough creations Liam's preschool friends made me. I wrote the following:
On April 28th I started volunteering back I'm Liam's preschool class. I thought it was going to be very difficult, that maybe I'd even have to walk out because I'd start crying. And like I also expected, they asked about Liam. And they like I didn't expect, they would randomly walk up and hug me or just hold my hand. During center, I worked at the playdough table where we had to make bugs. After the kids were able to create anything. I randomly took the pipe cleaners and made hearts. The kids thought it was awesome and continued to ask me to make more for their creations. When they were done they presented each one to be saying they made them for Liam. Some were for me. I almost started crying right then and there. How special are these children whose hearts are huge and willing to love unconditionally and grieve with a smile on their face? They tell me they miss him and that he's their friend. "Of course he's your friend. He will always be your friend" I tell them. They smile huge back at me. Kids deal with things differently. Sometimes I wish I was more like them. Believing without seeing. Always having faith in everything and everyone. I carrying with me forever in my heart these memories and they help me more than these kids will ever know.
As hard as it was to go back to volunteer in his class, it was also a blessing. I needed to be there with those amazing kids, Liam's friends, to be reminded that there was still so much love and innocence in this world. Being there with them twice a week got me through some really tough times. I work at their school and have been able to watch these kids grow. They're in 1st grade now and have gotten so tall. Every day they come through the lunch line and they smile at me, tell me "Hi Ms Aubin" or give me that shy silly smile that always makes me laugh.
Then there was the day we got a glow in the dark surprise. In 2015 I wrote:
We got a surprise! So today I got a call from hubby saying to get home because the dog ate Liam's gtube button. Yes folks you read that right. The dog...ate...Liam's gtube. He just decided it was a toy and pulled it out and ended up eating it. Justin said he heard Liam yelling at the dog "no dog no! Bad dog!" So he turned around and saw what happened. Liam didn't cry, he just scolded the dogs. That's a new one for us and now we know that Liam isn't allowed outside with them unless he has on clothes. Apparently the dog really like the smell and taste of the stomach leaking. Smh. Anyway. I came home and cleaned him up and put in a new button. I got to looking at it and that's when I realized it was a glow in the dark button!! We've had a blast with this tonight. We called him a ghost, ET and taught him to say "et phone home" then called him a glow worm. Liam thought it was the coolest thing ever to have his gtube glow.
I had been getting him ready for bed when we noticed it glowing. Talk about an exciting event. We thought it was just so awesome. It's the little things that made life easier.
(2014)
No comments:
Post a Comment