You make plans for the future. You feel confident and safe. Problem is that there isn't always a future to make good on those plans. We learned that the hard way with Liam. We had so many plans with him. We wanted to make so many trips, do so many things, teach him so many things. I planned to see him grow both physically and mentally. I planned to see him running around playing soccer and football with his friends. I planned on teaching him to drive and how to text and use a computer. How to read and do math. How to cook and mow the lawn. I wanted to see his preK graduation and his High School graduation. I wanted to talk him through his first heart break and be there when he found the love of his life.
Then there are other types of plans. Like just trying to survive the loss of our son and raise our daughter and keep a roof over our head. Plans to go to work daily and maybe squeeze in a trip to the beach other the summer. Simple plans but plans all the same. We've yet again learned plans change. Just like that, our lives can change.
Tuesday morning, Justin went in to get two teeth extracted. It's a routine procedure that people have done every day without complications. This one had huge complications however. He ended up bleeding from his nose profusely and his face swelled up so huge he started instantly bruising. We had to call for an ambulance because he was bleeding so badly that we thought he was bleeding to death and from his nose no less. Very long story short we spent 9 hours in ER. It took 7 hours to stop the bleeding. His sinus cavity was exposed and he was left with two fractures in his face on each side of the exposed sinus. The sinus cavity is filled with blood. Yesterday he followed up with an ENT surgeon and they were able to determine he didn't need surgery like they originally thought. He has to follow back up with them again next week and if the swelling is still there, they will have to drain the blood out so that sepsis won't set in.
Because of this injury, Justin isn't allowed to work for 3 weeks. He also can't sneeze, or blow his nose for 9 weeks. He also was diagnosed with high blood pressure and had several doctors sit him down and have the talk with him. They told him that he's beyond hypertension that he's a ticking time bomb. As soon as this trauma to his face resolves he's to get into a PCP and get on meds. So it's my job to get him a PCP and make sure he goes and gets meds because we want him around for a very long time.
Again, that's the ting about plans. We can make them all we want, but they keep getting ruined. We will suffer financially from this and not be able to do things we wanted but at least we have him still. It was so scary to see him bleed like that. I hadn't seen that much blood since the day Liam passed and it brought back flack backs I didn't want. Feelings I didn't want to face. When I was trying to explain to the nurses how much blood he lost just while inside my house, I described my kitchen sink looking like the scene of a murder movie. They also saw the bathroom towel drenched in blood when he went into ER. I'm really glad Lanie was at school and didn't see any of it. Thank God I still have my husband.
Then there are other types of plans. Like just trying to survive the loss of our son and raise our daughter and keep a roof over our head. Plans to go to work daily and maybe squeeze in a trip to the beach other the summer. Simple plans but plans all the same. We've yet again learned plans change. Just like that, our lives can change.
Tuesday morning, Justin went in to get two teeth extracted. It's a routine procedure that people have done every day without complications. This one had huge complications however. He ended up bleeding from his nose profusely and his face swelled up so huge he started instantly bruising. We had to call for an ambulance because he was bleeding so badly that we thought he was bleeding to death and from his nose no less. Very long story short we spent 9 hours in ER. It took 7 hours to stop the bleeding. His sinus cavity was exposed and he was left with two fractures in his face on each side of the exposed sinus. The sinus cavity is filled with blood. Yesterday he followed up with an ENT surgeon and they were able to determine he didn't need surgery like they originally thought. He has to follow back up with them again next week and if the swelling is still there, they will have to drain the blood out so that sepsis won't set in.
Because of this injury, Justin isn't allowed to work for 3 weeks. He also can't sneeze, or blow his nose for 9 weeks. He also was diagnosed with high blood pressure and had several doctors sit him down and have the talk with him. They told him that he's beyond hypertension that he's a ticking time bomb. As soon as this trauma to his face resolves he's to get into a PCP and get on meds. So it's my job to get him a PCP and make sure he goes and gets meds because we want him around for a very long time.
Again, that's the ting about plans. We can make them all we want, but they keep getting ruined. We will suffer financially from this and not be able to do things we wanted but at least we have him still. It was so scary to see him bleed like that. I hadn't seen that much blood since the day Liam passed and it brought back flack backs I didn't want. Feelings I didn't want to face. When I was trying to explain to the nurses how much blood he lost just while inside my house, I described my kitchen sink looking like the scene of a murder movie. They also saw the bathroom towel drenched in blood when he went into ER. I'm really glad Lanie was at school and didn't see any of it. Thank God I still have my husband.
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