Showing posts with label Hospital. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hospital. Show all posts

Monday, September 1, 2014

Overcoming Challenges

2 years ago today Liam was back in the hospital running a fever of 102.5. He had 3 IVs blow in the matter of hours. This was only the beginning. It was a rough stay full of tears, fears and doubts. All I wanted was for my baby boy to be healthy. Not running fevers and not in the hospital. But this was our lives. 3 years felt like forever. By the time he turned 1 it felt like he should of been 15. It was rough but we made it and are stronger for it. Thank God we made it. #cdh #awareness #hospital 



Today we celebrate life. We celebrate every milestone, every step and every breath. On only his 3rd day of preschool his teacher told us he reached all his goals that we set for a 6month period. When we set these goals we weren't sure if 6 months was enough time but turns out it was too much time. 

I am greatful to God for giving me my baby boy, for making him strong and willfully stubborn and for giving me the strength to stand by his side. 

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

30th Hospital Stay


Yes it's official.
Liam has had his 30th hospital stay.
We've had a hell of a week!!
On the 17th Liam was taken to Children's hospital ER.
He was vomiting,
running a fever,
and required oxygen.
By the time we got to ER,
it's an hour drive,
Liam was breathing very heavy.
So heavy that it had the nurse scared.
She put an oxygen mask on him and pumped 13 litters into it.
I had had him on only 1 1/2 litters.
After quiet some time on 13 liters and an hour treatment
his breathing calmed down.

They took blood for labs.
Checking all the usual possibilities like mediport infection.
At the end of getting the blood out of the mediport,
it clogged up on them.
A blood clot got lodged and they were unable to get it out.
They called the doc and had to place an IV in his hand.
Thanks to all the time he's had to heal his veins,
getting an IV was a snap.
Through the IV they gave Liam fluids,
and some very powerful heavy duty antibiotics just in case it was a mediport infecion.
They used TPA to try an break up the clot.
It was very hard for them to get the TPA into the mediport.
The nurse pushed with all her might to get it in.
Two hours later it was still clogged.

By this time we already knew Liam was being admitted.
One for the clot in his mediport.
Two for his labs showing elevated white blood count.
Three not tolerating feeds.
Four his sudden oxygen requirement.
Good news was the xray of his lungs looked clear.

At 6am on the 18th we were still in ER.
Justin came to stay with Liam so I could rush home and work at 8:30am.
Later that morning the nurses in ER tried again to draw from his mediport.
They were again,
unsuccessful.
So they pushed TPA again.
My husband said that the nurse pushed even harder.
He said she pushed the TPA with all she had and was straining to get it in.
Then after a few hours they tried to draw blood.
hey got very very little. Just pulled enough into the needle line before stopping.
They were quick to announce that his mediport was now unclogged.
HMM....

Still because it was barely working they continued to use the IV in his hand.
Smart move on their part considering how this story ends.

They didn't start Liam's feeds back up until late afternoon on the 18th.
He was able to tolerate a full bolus of 4oz of Pediatric Compleate.
His 12 hour continuos bolus also went very well.
He continued to need oxygen and get breathing treatments around the clock.
At 11am on the 19th they took Liam completely off oxygen.
He tolerated room air perfectly at this point.
The "doctor" told us that if Liam tolerated room air for 24 hours,
then he would be allowed to go home.
Meanwhile his blood cultures came back negative.
Meaning no mediport infection.
(theres more to this just wait)
We still had no clue what was wrong with Liam.

On thursday the 19th at 7pm I arrived in Liam's hospital room.
I almost couldn't function while away from him knowing he was sick.
I felt horrible for not being by his side.
I even had a break down and cried about it.
I was so happy to be back at his side and caring for him.
He was happy to see me too.
Mommy gave him loads and loads of cuddles and anything he asked for.
I had took one look at Liam IV in his hand,
and explained to the nurse I felt his hand looked really puffy like it was blown.
She said that yes his hand was puffy but it was fine.
I told her i really felt it was gone.
She felt his hand and said it was fine.
I didn't want to make waves.
I knew that sometimes Liams hand did get pudgy when it was taped like that,
but I also knew that when it was red and puffy like that,
chanced were good it was blown.
I took her word though since she'd been watching him for two nights now.

During the night on the 19th/20th Liam started vomiting.
I honestly thought it was from coughing so much.
Because he started coughing before he vomited the nurses agreed.
We were even able to continue the feed.
He ended up doing this twice in the matter of 30 minutes.
The only major problem we saw was that he would start his coughing attacks,
about 30 minutes before his treatment was due.
Thankfully all the RT's were right on time.

On Friday the 20th the Doctors and "doctor" declared that Liam was good to go home.
When we finally got the discharge paper work it was around 5pm.
First to come out was the mediport.
They'd kept the mediport needle in just in case.
The nurse flushed it with hepran,
like we always do.
Then took off the dressing and out came the needle.
No hassle,
no pulling,
not like normal.
What came out with the needle?
All the hepran she had just pushed.
You know what a blown IV look like?
Well this looked just like that but bigger and on his chest.
I staired at it and then at her in question.
My brain tried to process what the situation was and what it all meant.
At the same time both the nurse and I mentally hit our heads on that metaphoric wall.
We started talking about how the heck this could happen.
After talking about everything from ER to then,
we were able to come to a conclusion we both agreed on.
The ER nurse was NOT supposed to push the TPA (or anything else) that hard.
Why?
Because it could cause the needle to dislodge.
And what had happened here?
The needle dislodged!!
Thankfully we didn't use it!

So then we called the "doctor" and notified him of what had happened.
He came in to talk to me so I asked what the side effects were.
I mean we just put in a whole months worth of TPA straight into Liam's chest cavity.
A medicine that's supposed to prevent the blood in the mediport from clotting.
What was his responce?
That the body would absorb it in time and he would be fine.
No side effects.
Really??
The charge nurse came in later to let me know this happened once to an adult patients mediport she was working with and his entire left side swelled up pretty bad and was red.
But yea the "doctor" said no side effects.
Thankfully there are nurses there who care and let me know what the possibilities were.
Seriously we've had some amazing nurses in this journey.
Ones I would have been lost without.

Finally it was time for the discharge instructions.
The nurse and I were going through the paper work,
and we were both confounded and pissed at what we were reading.
The "doctor" wrote a bunch of symptoms and diagnosis that Liam never had.
He wrote that Liam was on meds he was never on.
He also stated that Liam had a broviac instead of a mediport.
BIG DIFFERENCE!!!
The nurse apologozed profusely for this.
That's when I learned that the "doctor"
was actually a second year med student.
REALLY???
I was fumming pissed.
No wonder he seemed like he knew nothing and had NO answers for us!
Instead of waiting around for notes at this point,
I made noted on her copy of the paperwork before signing it.
She made several notes of her own.
She said this guy was on her list because he was always screwing up.

Putting our frustration and anger aside,
it was time to get the IV out of Liam's hand.
Guess what we find?
His IV had blown as well!!
I told the nurse how I had thought it was the night before,
but when I brought it up to the night nurse she insured me it was fine.
At this point our poor nurse was at her wits end.
She explained that she was going to talk to the head doctor of that group,
explain what had happened with the other "doctor",
as well as make a incident report.
She said it needed to be documented in case Liam ended up having symptoms from it.
She had our back all the way.
After I dressed Liam and we grabbed all our stuff,
we left.
As we walked through past the nurse's station we found our nurse on the phone.
Sure enough she was already making the complaints and incident reports.
I swear this lady had a heart of gold.
I can only hope that if and when Liam has  to go back,
that we get her again.
I truely love her for honestly caring about our little lamb.

What's going on now?
Well Liam hasn't gotten better.
In fact since he's been discharged he's gotten worse.
The next day (21st)
Liam started running fevers.
101.6 on saturday morning.
I almost rushed him back that very minute.
In fact he was looking so bad on saturday morning that I called into work and started packing our bags.
Justin talked to me and convinced me to calm down and take a few steps before rushing off.
We gave him motrin and a cool shower and he cooled off.
He was also breathing fast and coughing so we gave an early treatment.
At this point we were doing albuterol very 4 hours.
His pulmacurt and atravant in the morning and night.
At nights he was vomiting his formula feeds.
We had to stop them as soon as that happened.
It wasn't just some vomit but full on perjectile.
On sunday we was still running fevers.
I went and bought gatoraide to run through his tube to keep him hydrated.
We also had to start using atrovant every 4 hours.
Liam was getting a treatment every 2 hours at this point.
He was also needing oxygen at night.
Sunday night/ Monday morning ay 1am he started vomiting without even coughing.
Again it was perjectile.
I stopped the formula and started gatoraide.
During the late mornings and into the evening Liam seemed fine.
If it wasn't for all the coughing you'd never know he was sick.

Monday I had to call into work again.
Liam had to go see our pediatrician.
It was mandatory.
Liam's cough and the way he behaved screamed it was time.
Our pediatrician gave him a combined albuterol/atrovant treatment so he could hear the before and after in Liam's lungs.
Thankfully he said the wheeze pretty much went away,
and it didn't sound like pnuemonia.
So we went home with a different breathing treatment plan.
Albuterol every 3 hours.
Atrovant every 6 hours
This has helped but Liam is still so congested.
We also started gatoraide boluses in the daytime.
This is to ensure he stays hydrated.
And our pedi is ok with oxygen use at night.
He said whatever helps Liam stay home longer.

Today Liam has thrown up twice on his boluses.
He barely tolerates 2 oz when his normal is 4.
This had be extremely worried.
I called home every break I had to check on him.
Every time Liam wasn't running a fever,
refused to eat anything,
and was running amok like normal.
Still the very low calorie intake was so stressful.

Our pedi,
who is amazing and the best EVER,
made a house call tonight to check on him.
Liam's lungs have a wheeze here and there,
but are moving air well.
He said to keep doing what we're doing.
Lower the night feed rate so he keeps the formula down.
That way he gets calories in him.
He said he's ok with oxygen usage at night.
He feels that Liam can still stay home at this point.
Thank Heavens because I was so worried.
We are to text him tomarrow letting him know how Liam's doing.
Yes text him,
as in his personal cell phone.
Thats how awesome our pediatrician is.

In other good news,
the Pediatric Compleate was approved my insurance and will be delivered tomarrow.
We were first told it would not be covered,
because it's made by nestle.
Well that worker was thankfully wrong.
Our GI gave us a case of it a few weeks ago to try.
The transition from Elecare JR to Compleate was seemless.
Liam has never tollerated something so quickly and seemlessly before.
Compleate isn't an actual formula because it is not milk based.
It's actual food blended up.
When I was blending foods and pushing them through Liams gtube
we saw an immediate response.
He was more energetic.
He stopped retching and vomiting,
And he started packing on the weight faster than ever.
That says alot because Liam seldomly gains weight.
When we tried a whole case of Compleate,
I saw an immediate response.
No retching or vomiting.
More energetic.
And from one day to the next I could see weight gain in his belly.

Justin thought I was joking and didn't believe me.
But one look at Liam's belly and he was shocked.
There was a belly begining.
This was exciting.
So when we were told monday that it wouldn't be covered,
we were both so very frustrated and angry.
Compleate had given us hope,
and that hope had been ripped from out eyes.
God must have heard our prayers and given us a miracle.
We are so excited that his Compleate will be here tomarrow.
We hope that he tollerates it better right now than the formula.
I say that just because he is sick and not tolerating much of anything.
Already in this bought of sickness,
Liam has lost weight.
You can see it by just looking at him.
No need for scales with him because its very visable.

I feel so blessed that this prayer has been answered.
And if insurance hadn't covered it,
I have a very dear friend with a CDH baby of her own who is on Compleate.
She offered to supply us with some knowing how hard it is for these kids to gain weight.
I absolutely love that I have grown so close to a few mom's with CDHers,
and that we can help each other out when we can.

In other news:
Lanie has a bad ear infection.
It just started hurting last night.
She came to me crying in pain so I took her to urgent care.
The doctor there was shocked it had only started hurting that day.
She said it looked like it had been brewing for some time now.
I'm really glad we caught it before it became even worse.
Lanie hasn't complaint very much at all over it.
I fear that it could be because she knows we're under alot of stress as it is that she doesn't want to cause us more.
I sat her down and explained to her that she never should fear telling us anything.
That is shes hurting she needs to let us know so we can help.
I told her shes too young to worry.
She promised me that she hadn't been keeping it from us.
So then I started thinking that because she used to have ear infections chronically,
that she built up a tollerance to the pain.
Kind of like I built of a tollerance to my back pain.
I've only gotten worse.
Physical Therapy did strengthen my core like we wanted it too.
Only it didn't solve the problem.
In fact it might have made it worse in some ways.
I still have the pins and needles pain all over.
My upper spine cracks alot and stays sore.
My whole body stays sore for the pins and needles feeling.
The longer I'm on my feet the number and worse they get.
I missed last fridays appointment because I was at the hospital with Liam,
so I can't get into him again until July 7th.
He wants me to take meds to detox the aspertame poisoning he feels never went away.
He's also referring me to a nuerologist.
I have an MRI tomarrow.
Hoping we get some news from that very soon.
I just need to know what the problem is so that I can fix it asap.
The pain had climbed to a new level that my body is having a hard time getting used to so I can block it out.
I might have 1 decent day out of 10.
Today was my last PT appointment.
They did their last evaluation.
They feel I've outgrown what they can do for me and she also felt really bad she couldn't help make the pain go away.
I'm actually sad to see it stop.
I really liked them and think they were doing great with me.
But all good things must come to an end.
Now I need to hold myself accountable and get to the gym.
I know what I have to do to continue to strengthen my muscles and need to stick with it.

Now to reward those whose read the whole blog post:







Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Ideas For Hospital Stays: Meals

Everyone whose ever stayed at the hospital with their families knows how expensive the cafeteria can be. It cost a small fortune to eat for a few short days, let alone a week or months or longer. Those that stay in the hospital frequently usually run to the nearest store and pick up foods that can be stored in the hospital rooms cabinet and be heated up in the cafeteria (for those cafeterias that have microwaves any way). You also know that after a few days you start longing for a good home cooked meal and that can homesickness and make a hospital stay harder.

I just saw a commercial for this product and thought "that would be perfect for hospital stays". Grantid Im not sure if hospital policy would allow you to use it.

The NuWave PIC is a precision induction cooktop. Its small and never gets hot. The induction cookware gets hot but not the cooktop. So if you forget to turn it off, as long as theres not a pan on it, it theoretically shouldnt catch fire...THEORETICALLY!

It's small and portable, even comes with a storage bag so you could easily take it with you anywhere. I immediately wished I had had one of these these last 22 1/2 months of hospital stays.

If anything you should take a few minutes and check out this product. No I'm NOT getting paid to post this and I am in no way associated with the company or its product. I just think its pretty cool. Like I said, I wish I had had this the last 22 1/2 months of hospital stays.

http://www.nuwavepic.com/


Friday, December 7, 2012

Another stay at club med

Dispite all our trying we just couldn't avoid another hospital stay. Liam has been vomiting. Three nights ago he aspirated. Our ped prescribed oral steroid and antibiotics but they didn't work. Yesterday I had to rush him to Children's hospital where he was admitted for respitory distress, possible aspiration pneumonia, and not tolerating feeds. After having IV fluids, IV antibiotics, IV steroids, and a continuos albuterol treatment over night he's feeling much better. He even ripped out his IV this morning :( they're going to try feeds. Pray fully he tolerates and this will be a short stay.











Saturday, November 17, 2012

Hectic Crazy Busy Life

Sorry for Lacking on the post. Alot as been going on and I've got my hands full. Ill try to get you cought up:



Last Sunday November 11th Liam's Jport on his button litterally broke completely out. I had to rush him to Children's where he was admitted since he had to undergo surgery.
 
He had surgery monday afternoon then was released at 9:15pm. The GI who did the surgery said that his tube was completely clogged up so I have to clean it once a week using soda. YES SODA, i.e. pepsi or coke.
Liam also has to be put on the surgical roster to have his tube repleced every 2 to 3 months routinely since theyve had to do emergency surgery 3 times since August.
He also has to have a mediport put in before his next surgery and to do that he has to be perfectly healthy, which brings be to my next update.
 
Today is day #3 of Liam having a snotty nose, cough and congestion.
Everyday it gets worse but we're thinking it's due to the weather flip flopping. Atleast we're hoping.
He goes to his Ped on wednesday so we will know more then.
Im praying he didn't catch RSV, he doesnt get his first centages until wednesday,
 
During PT we talked about how Liam's right foot turns outward. We're going to work on manualy turning it inward. When she comes back in 2 weeks shes going to bring these strap things thatll prevent him feet from going outward. She said this could also be a cause for him not being able to stand on his own yet. We're also working on getting Liam to be able to move from say the couch to say his play table by turning around and steping away from the couch toward the table.
It's all part of catching him up really.
 
On the eating by mouth front, he still only hold interest for suckers.
He will bite on a baby rice cake or numnum but wont eat it.
No liquids by mouth yet either.
He's still on baby formula because we havent figured out why he doesnt tollerate concentrated formulas and all Junior formulas are concentrated apparently.
You can touch his mouth withou him gagging now.
Thats a HUGE step.
You still cant put anything in his mouth though.
 
 
 
 
Lanie has been a loving, doting big sister.
She spends most of her days playing with Liam.
She uses his blocks to build tall towers and Liam pulls a Godzilla by destroying them. They just laugh and laugh.
Infact she does alot to make him laugh and no one can make him laugh like she can. We're very proud of her handling everything so well.
With all Liam's needs we dont get to spend as much time just being with her or even buying things for her.
She understands that brother needs things and even helps.
We cant go into a store without her saying "Oh this would be perfect for Liam".
It's enough to bring me to my knees sometimes.
Shes so giving and loving.
Most people dont get to see that part of her.
I wish there were more hours in the day to do whatever she wanted with her.
 
I find myself looking at Liam during med time or feed time and thinking "Why cant he just be normal?". I feel guilty because to me its like wanting to change him and I love him, his personality is amazing. But Id love to spend less time being a nurse and more time being their mom.

This time last year:
Liam weighed 10 lbs 4 oz. As of his last weight he was around 25 pounds. Last year he wasn't even on the chart. This year he's in the 10th percentile. He's come a long way.

This time last year Liam had gotten his first Gtube. We all thought he's have it out within the year. Now he has a GJtube and we know for a fact that he will have to have it for atleast 3 to 4 more years :(
 
This time last year Liam fit so perfectly in my arms. He wasn't happy unless he was being held.
Now...
Liam barely likes to be cuddled unless he doesnt feel good. He is so much taller and he's so heavy its hard for me to hold him for long.
 
This time last year Lanie was shorter and chubby. Her hair was barely below her shoulders.
 
This year, her hair cascades down to the middle of her back.
Her personality, and attitude have tripped.
Shes taller, leaner.
And funnier.
 
Ive changed too.
Even after the time in NICU and the 2 hospital stays I was still happy.
My hair was still long, to my lower back. I looked alittle tired but I hadnt aged too much.
 
Now... Ive chopped my hair off. Put on 5 pounds.
I am constantly tired. Sometimes I put effort into trying to hide the circles, the exhaustion, the stress with makeup and clothes, like above. But even then I look like Ive aged a good 10 years in 1 year. (below was begining of October this year)

Even Justin has changed. Though he's making a huge effort to do it purposely. He's lost alot of weight and started builting mucsle. I have to say Im jealous that I cant seem to find the energry to work out when everything is said and done.

Oh and Liam got another hair cut. After that IV in his head we had no choice.
Last pic of Liam with hair
 
"No Dad I dont want my hair cut"
 
Even bald he's a cuttie :)
 
Ive also posted a few new videos on YouTube.
You can check them out on my channel "BuggiesMommy"
 
 


 

Friday, October 26, 2012

A Look Back at Last October

 
This time last year we spent our time at Childrens Hospital with Liam. He was admitted for Failure To Thrive, vommiting and not tollerating feeds. He was 3 1/2 months old and had only spend a total of 2 weeks at home. We were scared. Liam ended up staying in through October into early November, a total of 6 weeks straight during this stay. He ended up needing a Nissen Fundoplication and a G-tube. We are so very happy that this year, Liam has NOT been admitted at ALL during the month of October (lets hope it stays that way) and that we are getting to spend Halloween at home, the way it was intended. It's Liam's first Halloween home and we are so very happy for that.
 
 
 

Thursday, August 2, 2012

A Year Ago Today...


A year ago today, we were sitting in NICU getting ready for another try at excubating Liam. Liam has failed being excubated several times prior to this but we kept faith. We knew that there was a chance he still wouldn't fly but we were prepaired. This was the process, the journey, full of ups and downs.

And today....




Liam spends his days surrounded by those who love him. We never get enough of having him here with us. Even when all the breathing treatments and meds and other needs make me feel exhausted, I look at him and his smile fills my heart with satisfaction and content. His big sister wakes up every morning, goes into his room and tells him 'good morning'. She loves trying to teach him new things and "showing him how to play with his toys".

I also have super GREAT news to announce. Its been exactly..................

  9 WEEKS SINCE LIAMS LAST HOSPITAL STAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the longest stent we've ever had him home!!!! Next weeks it'll be 2 1/2 months!!!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!! And thank you everyone who has been praying for our little lamb. We hope that you will continue to keep him in your prayers.

Liam still has his cold but he's doing really good. Our next little journey will be with physical therapy, feeding therapy and OT. He needs alot of prayers and help in these areas.

 

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Looking Back 7/22/11

A year ago today my little lamb was 1 day post-op from repair surgery. He survived the repair and began healing.


Liam was slowly being weined from the paralytic and finnaly was allowed to wake up and open his eyes for us. I remember sitting there stairing at him when the nurse said he was being allowed to wake up. Admittedly, I cried when I saw his beautiful eyes.



Liam threw his first fit.

So Lanie sang to him "Go to sleep little liam"

And he calmed right down.





Fast forward: 7/22/12