Uterine Tear

Here I am, snuggles with my cat in massive pain. He knows I'm hurting worse than normal and that's why he's here. 

There's a lot of stress right now but only one topic I'd like to focus on. 

When I was pregnant with Liam, my uterus tore. This is a very serious problem and rare. It only happens in like 1% of woman. Both baby and mom could die from this. Liam and I were blessed and survived. That's a miracle as the docs didn't even catch it until two months later during his csection. 

It's been almost 4 years since this chilling discovery. Liam was my 2nd csection baby, and the scar from my 1st csection made my uterus weak. Lanie was 3 1/2 years old at this point, making that scar the same age. 

Now Liam is close to the same age Lanie was when my uterus tore and I am facing this possibility again. Only this time I'm not pregnant. 

I have cyst that like to reaccur often even after we get rid of them via birth control pills. It's ironic. My tubes are tied but I still have to be on birth control on and off. Laughable really. Anyhow.... It takes care of the problem for an undetermined period of time. 

For the last 3 months I have blead 3 weeks out of every month. The pain has been getting increasingly worse. These were two warning signs that the cyst were back and it was time to high tail it to the womans doctor. I had also started working out using a big exercise ball where I lay flat, and transfer it from hands to feet, stretch out and repeat. When I did this, I felt pulling in my lower abdomen and within minutes started bleeding. At first I thought nothing of it. Until this last time about a week-two weeks ago. 

So today I went. As much as I hate it, I went knowing that I couldn't put it off any longer because it was only going to get worse from here on out. God must have been watching over me and whispering in my ear this afternoon to go because I almost missed the appointment. 

This was the first time I saw this doctor and normally I'm uneasy with doctors. Especially ones that want to have a close look at down there. Luckily, thanks to bleeding, she couldn't (that's the only time I'll ever be happy to be bleeding!!). I explained my past medical history with cyst, and a torn uterus and what was going on now. I felt she needed to hear it all before she came to a diagnosis. 

It's imperative nothing gets missed. She was concerned that I've continued to have cyst over and over again but was happy that birth control had gotten rid of them before. Unfortunately she wasn't happy that they keep accuring. Still she prescribed them as a precaution and ordered a ultrasound. Secondly she was concerned that not only had I had a torn uterus previously (and 2 Csections) but that when I tried to exercise or "pulled" a lower abdominal muscle or uterus that bleeding and pain were a result. This is another reason she ordered the ultrasound. She's said that once we Rey the ultrasound back, she will decide if she needs to CT my abdomen as well depending on what she sees or even if she sees nothing at all. 

Her worry is that I have once again torn my uterus open. She said there could also be a lot of scarring pulling and causing pain as well. The prognosis was if my uterus was torn again or there was excessive scar tissue that we'd have to do a hysterectomy. 

Depending on the severity of the cyst, it could go either way. Stick with birth control and see if they continue to return or if they're or severe then do a hysterectomy and be done with it. 

I say God was looking out for me today because tonight, I have been in severe pain. Pain that has caused tears, I tractor breathing and me trying to figure out how to get to ER. This severe pain is the same exact pain I had while pregnant with Liam when my uterus tore. Moving has only made it worse. I've take tramadol, ibuprofen, and used essential oils and have a heating pad on my stomach but that pain is so severe nothing is helping. Thankfully the pain comes in waves, giving a reprieve between. 

I've tried to do research on the chances of a uterus tearing a second time and while not pregnant but that Info just isn't out there. I'm guessing because it just doesn't usually happen and is more rate than the 1% chance of a torn uterus to begin with. This is why I wanted to share my story. If it could happen to me, it could happen to someone else and with any luck the next person who does a google search and finds this, won't feel so alone. 

Possible symptoms of a torn uterus:

Severe cramping

Tenderness at the site

Pain at the site

Contraction like cramps that are intermittent. 

Bleeding. 

If your pregnant and this is happening, seek emergency medical attention. It's deadly to both baby and mom. If the placenta were to break and leak into your body through the tear, it's toxic and could result in death. 

If your not pregnant but think this could be a possibility, see your doctor right away because this could still be bad. Your don't neccisarily have had to have a csection for this to happen. It can happen during birth when your straining to push or from the drugs to induce labor. Again this is rare and happens only 1-2% of the time. 

The above is just my story. I am not a doctor or in the medical profession. Always seek medical attention.